Sunday, May 14, 2006
Mother's Day
I'm really sad today. I should not be.
My mother is still living, and for that I should be rejoicing, and I am. Granted, she lives almost 700 miles away and I can't be with her today, but I haven't been able to spend a Mother's Day with her for over 20 years.
My mother-in-law is still living. She's even farther away, and we haven't seen her for Mother's Day in probably 15 years, either. But, as mothers-in-law go, she's a pretty good one and I should be happy today that she raised her son to be the good man he is, and that she is the good woman she is.
And I'm not a mother today. But, I haven't been a mother for 44 years. I should be used to the non-event feeling of this "holiday" by now.
But, having finally given up on trying to conceive just a month ago, there's a fresh wound that's bleeding within my heart today.
My mother is still living, and for that I should be rejoicing, and I am. Granted, she lives almost 700 miles away and I can't be with her today, but I haven't been able to spend a Mother's Day with her for over 20 years.
My mother-in-law is still living. She's even farther away, and we haven't seen her for Mother's Day in probably 15 years, either. But, as mothers-in-law go, she's a pretty good one and I should be happy today that she raised her son to be the good man he is, and that she is the good woman she is.
And I'm not a mother today. But, I haven't been a mother for 44 years. I should be used to the non-event feeling of this "holiday" by now.
But, having finally given up on trying to conceive just a month ago, there's a fresh wound that's bleeding within my heart today.
